Friday, September 30, 2011
Sigh!! Monday gg do blood test agn!! Damn!!! Arghhhhhh!!!!
I gnna be brave n strong girl! I w go myself!!! Whn I go take report also alone!
His here agn! :( nv talk also! Also good my heart so pain whenever I see him! Hurt!! N knw wht!!! Tml she meeting his parent!! Wtf!!! Okay whatever his nt my whoever already! I dnt care! N I dnt wnna knw!!! Pls ppl dnt tell me anything abt thm!! The both of thm!!! Tks!!!!!!! It's hurting to know even more!!!!
I gnna be brave n strong girl! I w go myself!!! Whn I go take report also alone!
His here agn! :( nv talk also! Also good my heart so pain whenever I see him! Hurt!! N knw wht!!! Tml she meeting his parent!! Wtf!!! Okay whatever his nt my whoever already! I dnt care! N I dnt wnna knw!!! Pls ppl dnt tell me anything abt thm!! The both of thm!!! Tks!!!!!!! It's hurting to know even more!!!!
♥ Love me endlessly, 11:10 AM.
Went qh hse today, before knock he went dwn to find xh! Aww! I miss him! I wish I could see him agn but everytime I sees him... Pain!!! :(:(:( last photo of him
♥ Love me endlessly, 2:17 AM.
Thursday, September 29, 2011
Morning went skin center w Kelly n jonathon aftr tht we went novena square walk for a while thn head down to ps for movie afte movie went Bugis cos jonathon wnt bring Kelly go buy their wedding ring! Ltr carleen joined awhile n left cos zr nt feeling well thn we went Bugis street for a walk n thn back home. N I fall aslp too tired le! Lol just wake up! Lol thts all for today's journey!
Days are coming closer n closer, bro leaving me, leaving us! I'm scare! My birthday coming n I'm gonna be alone agn! Sigh!! :( n imy :(
Days are coming closer n closer, bro leaving me, leaving us! I'm scare! My birthday coming n I'm gonna be alone agn! Sigh!! :( n imy :(
♥ Love me endlessly, 12:28 AM.
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
Tam biet tinh Yeu! Though I wnt it to last but no fate ba! Haha too much of dnt understand thts y! We startedtoo fast thts y! It's ok! Who ask me born to be useless! Hahah nvm it's okay! I'm alright! Drinking brezeer n wine just nw like so wow!! Hahah
Though tonights isn't a happy night but I'm kinda happy cos today me mum bro n small bro hv the chance to gt tgt n hv dinner tgt! Hw great right! Been yrs we hvn been eating tgt at home in one table!
Though tonights isn't a happy night but I'm kinda happy cos today me mum bro n small bro hv the chance to gt tgt n hv dinner tgt! Hw great right! Been yrs we hvn been eating tgt at home in one table!
♥ Love me endlessly, 12:37 AM.
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Whn to see doctor, doctor say scare I my white blood cell more thn red blood cell need take blood test n my kidney too! :( terrible is kinda pain but bearable! Lol kns took 1big n 1small container of my blood:( hvn tallke already giddy take Liao more giddy until nw still giddy lo -.- wth man!!! No good no good!!!
♥ Love me endlessly, 7:08 PM.
Monday, September 26, 2011
Is this wht u wnt? Thn must well a break up? Like tht is bttr to us isn't it?
N u dnt think I'm the kind of girl u r searching for! So y not we just let go of each other? Let us find a bttr person who suits us more? Great idea?
Talked to mum last night! Feeling much bttr! N mum is right, why nt let go like this me n him(maybe) will feel bttr? Hw long cn we drag? Hw long cn we afford to wait? Hw long cn we tolerate? It's true! So wht r u waiting for? Dnt wnt till he say to u say it to him first else u will suffer more!
Ban trai is sick n ytd he called me
Whn my phone is silent thn I knw his nt feeling well n thts y he called me! I'm sry tht I wasn't thr for u whn u needed me!
I asked him
Sry to disturb u from resting, I need to talk to u! Face to face cn nt thn here ba,
y r u still treating me so cold? I dnt understand! U said we hv communication problem but arent u really knw in the first place tht I'm quiet?
If u really hv lost interest w me already just tell me!
U like tht drag wnt drag until whn be like this until wh?
Or u waiting for me to say?
Or whts up to u?
Mind saying?
U said before tht if I wnt this rs to last whatever unhappy things say it out, n u r nt saying out wht?
N all my reply frm u is all one word by one word! Wht is wrong man? Is like suddenly u changed!
U said u aren't like the others but y r u behaving like this?
Cn I knw?
He replied
I will talk to you within this few days , I'm not well now can I have my rest peacefully please ?
N u dnt think I'm the kind of girl u r searching for! So y not we just let go of each other? Let us find a bttr person who suits us more? Great idea?
Talked to mum last night! Feeling much bttr! N mum is right, why nt let go like this me n him(maybe) will feel bttr? Hw long cn we drag? Hw long cn we afford to wait? Hw long cn we tolerate? It's true! So wht r u waiting for? Dnt wnt till he say to u say it to him first else u will suffer more!
Ban trai is sick n ytd he called me
Whn my phone is silent thn I knw his nt feeling well n thts y he called me! I'm sry tht I wasn't thr for u whn u needed me!
I asked him
Sry to disturb u from resting, I need to talk to u! Face to face cn nt thn here ba,
y r u still treating me so cold? I dnt understand! U said we hv communication problem but arent u really knw in the first place tht I'm quiet?
If u really hv lost interest w me already just tell me!
U like tht drag wnt drag until whn be like this until wh?
Or u waiting for me to say?
Or whts up to u?
Mind saying?
U said before tht if I wnt this rs to last whatever unhappy things say it out, n u r nt saying out wht?
N all my reply frm u is all one word by one word! Wht is wrong man? Is like suddenly u changed!
U said u aren't like the others but y r u behaving like this?
Cn I knw?
He replied
I will talk to you within this few days , I'm not well now can I have my rest peacefully please ?
♥ Love me endlessly, 9:40 PM.
Sunday, September 25, 2011
Everyday feeling so terrible! Wht should I do? Terrible the horrible!!! So suck!!! Shouldn't hv start!!! If we nv had start today I wnt feel so terrible! N I think u also wnt so stressed up!!! Whatever I dnt care! I dnt wnna bother anymore!!! 3 mre days!!!:( n it's my worst one ever all!!!:(:(:(:(
I think this yr my birthday I'm nt gnna hv any bf acc me agn ba! :(:(:(
Ytd I'm drinking breezer tonight I'm drinking red wine! Lol hw great!
I think this yr my birthday I'm nt gnna hv any bf acc me agn ba! :(:(:(
Ytd I'm drinking breezer tonight I'm drinking red wine! Lol hw great!
♥ Love me endlessly, 10:47 PM.
Tks ladies! For our emoing night! I've a great night tonight! N tks for all the advice too! Love my ladies so much! Always my ladies! Cohy n kgxh! ;)
N tks god he came dwn! Tks! :) is so much bttr aftr seeing him!
Lol I drank too much last night abit drunk lol! Cos I said to carleen we buy one bottle half half ah she say ok so Kelly bought herself one bottle too! End up I n Kelly the one drank lol she did drank but abit only lo! Lol enjoy the moment last night hope time could just stop thr! :(
N tks god he came dwn! Tks! :) is so much bttr aftr seeing him!
Lol I drank too much last night abit drunk lol! Cos I said to carleen we buy one bottle half half ah she say ok so Kelly bought herself one bottle too! End up I n Kelly the one drank lol she did drank but abit only lo! Lol enjoy the moment last night hope time could just stop thr! :(
♥ Love me endlessly, 2:19 AM.
Saturday, September 24, 2011
I've found another way to torture myself! ;) morning login to fb saw something which I wnna pretend I saw nth but I cnt! He removed away the relationship status!! Asked him like this mean wnna break up? Nv reply I send agn give me an answer reply me, still nv reply I send agn so silent means yes? Finally He replied "no la u think too much" I asked him why is he treating me this way all this days n blah blah blah he replied "communication is the key prob" wht does it mean? I dnt understand!! Cn anyone tell wht does it mean?? Sigh!!
Though im talking to myself here but I at least is not in my mind nt in my heart! Cos I realty hv to one to turn to, no one to talk to! :(:(:(:(
His w her daughter today! Hope he had a great time w her! I knw its of cos n definerly will!! Lol at least tonight it's better! :) a little happy! Now otw meeting carleen my dear n Kelly my sweet! They say tonight emoing lol!! Quite true for me only! :) hv asked him whether he wnna tag along he say wnna make her daughter slp first. Hoping if he will be able to joini us! But it's alright if he cnt!
Though im talking to myself here but I at least is not in my mind nt in my heart! Cos I realty hv to one to turn to, no one to talk to! :(:(:(:(
His w her daughter today! Hope he had a great time w her! I knw its of cos n definerly will!! Lol at least tonight it's better! :) a little happy! Now otw meeting carleen my dear n Kelly my sweet! They say tonight emoing lol!! Quite true for me only! :) hv asked him whether he wnna tag along he say wnna make her daughter slp first. Hoping if he will be able to joini us! But it's alright if he cnt!
♥ Love me endlessly, 9:53 PM.
Too cold!! Feeling terrible!! Cn u at least tell me wht did I do wrong? Or wht hv I done to let u treating me this way? Is kinda torture!! I'm crying for the whole for not knowing whts wrong!! Do u knw tht? No u dnt! This feelings is really sucks!!! Terrible, horrible !!!!
♥ Love me endlessly, 12:56 AM.
Friday, September 23, 2011
Ytd aftr wrk xh spoke to me, hmm... I think I've to change n do some effort. Though I dnt gd at talking or wht I still hv to try! I think I can! Okay!! All the best to me!!! But he seem to getting far away Liao! -.- sad!
Ytd night went jogging ran the whole Carnell just nice ran finish the Carnell he called! :) talk for awhile hang up continue w my excerise climbed up the stair frm 1st floor to the last floor thn go dwn n climbed up agn for 3 times thn climbed up the stairs bck home!! Now both of mucsler is like so ache lo!! -.- tonight cnt go jogging le gnna do light excerise for my arms! ;)
Ytd night went jogging ran the whole Carnell just nice ran finish the Carnell he called! :) talk for awhile hang up continue w my excerise climbed up the stair frm 1st floor to the last floor thn go dwn n climbed up agn for 3 times thn climbed up the stairs bck home!! Now both of mucsler is like so ache lo!! -.- tonight cnt go jogging le gnna do light excerise for my arms! ;)
♥ Love me endlessly, 12:14 PM.
Thursday, September 22, 2011
Sigh!! Dear dear dnt wnt call me dnt wnt msg me Liao!!! Did I do anything wrong? Imy la!!! :(:(:(
I think my bf dnt wnt me already!!! He dnt even bother to reply my msg Liao!!! :(:(:(:( nice one!!! :'(:'(
I think my bf dnt wnt me already!!! He dnt even bother to reply my msg Liao!!! :(:(:(:( nice one!!! :'(:'(
♥ Love me endlessly, 12:30 PM.
Okay I think I'm over sensitive think too much!!! I'm sry ban trai!! Xin loi ban trai! I hv too stop thinking too much from now!!! Dnt always think negative la dey!!! Think positive!!! Tsk!!!
♥ Love me endlessly, 2:06 AM.
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
Wth!!! Wht a bf I hv?!?!? Go meet friend thn meet me!!! Kao!!! Feel so upsad n angry!!!! Sigh!!! Wht to do!!! He wnts low profile!! Wht cn I say!!! Dnt understand y? Cnt blame this path is I choose myself!!
Seriously u make me feel I'm just a sex toy of yours! Whn u need sex call me over u dnt need hack care me!!! Sigh!!!
Sigh!!! Alone at home!! Wht cn I do? So boring!!!
N thr goes agn!!! Cos Imy ban trai!!!!
Seriously u make me feel I'm just a sex toy of yours! Whn u need sex call me over u dnt need hack care me!!! Sigh!!!
Sigh!!! Alone at home!! Wht cn I do? So boring!!!
N thr goes agn!!! Cos Imy ban trai!!!!
♥ Love me endlessly, 5:42 PM.
I've never feel happy ever since u! been still searching for the happiness tht I've found in you! Is kinda hard! Cos everyone hv their own diff. Sigh!! Wht I wnt man!!! Wht u wnt man!!!! Shit u!!!!
Is this wht I wnt? My rs to be this way? Lol blank! Totally blank!! As I walked in started to black out!! Dnt knw wht should I do, wht I wnt! I just dnt feel happy at all some thing is not very right!!!! Sigh!!!
Who cn I talk to? Wht cn I do? Whr cn I go? Thrs no one I cn talk too! Nth I cn do! And ive no whr to go!!!
Is this wht I wnt? My rs to be this way? Lol blank! Totally blank!! As I walked in started to black out!! Dnt knw wht should I do, wht I wnt! I just dnt feel happy at all some thing is not very right!!!! Sigh!!!
Who cn I talk to? Wht cn I do? Whr cn I go? Thrs no one I cn talk too! Nth I cn do! And ive no whr to go!!!
♥ Love me endlessly, 12:38 PM.
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
A group of girlfriends went on vacation and saw a five-story hotel with a sign that read, ‘For Women Only.’ Since they were without their boyfriends, they decided to go in. The Bouncer, a very attractive guy, explains to them how it works. ‘We have 5 floors... go up floor by floor, and once you find what you are looking for, you can stay there. It's easy to decide, since each floor has signs telling you what's inside.’
So they start going up, and on the first floor the sign reads, ‘All the men here are
horrible lovers, but they are sensitive and kind’... the friends laugh and, without
hesitation, move on to the next floor. The sign on the second floor reads, ‘All the men here are wonderful lovers, but they generally treat women badly.’ This wasn't going to do, so the friends move up to the third floor where the sign read, ‘All the men here are great lovers and sensitive to the needs of women.’ This was good, but there were still two more floors. On the fourth floor, the sign was perfect: ‘All the men here have perfect builds; are sensitive and attentive to women; are perfect lovers; they are also single, rich and straight.’ The women seemed pleased, but they decide that they would rather see what the fifth floor had to offer before they settled for the fourth. When they reach the fifth floor, there is a sign that reads: ‘There are no men here. This floor was built only to prove that it is impossible to please a woman.’
Joke for the day!
So they start going up, and on the first floor the sign reads, ‘All the men here are
horrible lovers, but they are sensitive and kind’... the friends laugh and, without
hesitation, move on to the next floor. The sign on the second floor reads, ‘All the men here are wonderful lovers, but they generally treat women badly.’ This wasn't going to do, so the friends move up to the third floor where the sign read, ‘All the men here are great lovers and sensitive to the needs of women.’ This was good, but there were still two more floors. On the fourth floor, the sign was perfect: ‘All the men here have perfect builds; are sensitive and attentive to women; are perfect lovers; they are also single, rich and straight.’ The women seemed pleased, but they decide that they would rather see what the fifth floor had to offer before they settled for the fourth. When they reach the fifth floor, there is a sign that reads: ‘There are no men here. This floor was built only to prove that it is impossible to please a woman.’
Joke for the day!
♥ Love me endlessly, 11:11 AM.
Monday, September 19, 2011
Feeling terrible now! Almost cried today at work! Damn! Hv did my best my part to do everything at work is always nv enough! Wht do u all expect? One person do two person job! Wht some more u all expect? Damn!!
♥ Love me endlessly, 5:46 PM.
Sunday, September 18, 2011
Too many tots too many things happen together let me cnt take it anymore! Dnt understand is y living in life has to be in this way? I mean my life! Well I've tried to listen to my doctor tht I've to stop thinking negative think positive! If not I'll nv recover if I keep behaving this way! Sigh~!!
I just feel myself so useless whatever I do always not successful! Damn! Try my best to do my best but it always turn out the other way round!
N I've tried to talk as much as I can but ppl around still saying me tht "im too quiet" especially him! Nobody understands me at all! N y cnt he to smile at me first? Whenever we met the first think I saw him frm far I'm like so happy but y couldn't he just smile at me first and I'll just smile bck n like being this way n not I've to smile at him first :( (-.-") too many sigh~!!!!!
Dnt get it! Dnt understand!!! Dnt knw either!!!!
I just feel myself so useless whatever I do always not successful! Damn! Try my best to do my best but it always turn out the other way round!
N I've tried to talk as much as I can but ppl around still saying me tht "im too quiet" especially him! Nobody understands me at all! N y cnt he to smile at me first? Whenever we met the first think I saw him frm far I'm like so happy but y couldn't he just smile at me first and I'll just smile bck n like being this way n not I've to smile at him first :( (-.-") too many sigh~!!!!!
Dnt get it! Dnt understand!!! Dnt knw either!!!!
♥ Love me endlessly, 11:16 PM.
Saturday, September 17, 2011
Bibi! Jie jie miss u so much! :(:(
Hw I wish u n chi gai is with me now! At least I won't feel so left out without the both of u! My ever best mates I hv met! Tks my dear girl bibi n chigai!
Damn giddy today damn it! I think I didn't slp well last night n not enough slp thts y! Giddy till feel like vomitting! :( argh!! Not nice!! :(:(
Hw I wish u n chi gai is with me now! At least I won't feel so left out without the both of u! My ever best mates I hv met! Tks my dear girl bibi n chigai!
Damn giddy today damn it! I think I didn't slp well last night n not enough slp thts y! Giddy till feel like vomitting! :( argh!! Not nice!! :(:(
♥ Love me endlessly, 8:06 PM.
I tot I could be happy w u! I tot u r the happiness tht im searching for! I tot u could give me the happiness tht I wnted for! But I guess this all nt I wnted before! I shouldnt hv how u my love nv ever! Stay hard thn frm now!!! Shermaine jia you! N dnt be soft hearted anymore! U cn do it!!!
Nv hv step in! If I nv stepped in I wnt hv all this weird feelings!! Damn it! Well nv too late to step out I knw! But I think I've stepped quite deep :( shag!! It's okay! I still cn slowly step out! 3yr n 1 yr so deep Liao y not a few weeks one!!! Am I right? Damn it!!! Is this wht I should deserve?
Always doing the same damn thing so sick of it! Whn thn I cn find some one tht I cn relies on n a stable rs?!?!?
I hate myself for being a failure!!! Always wo fail! No matter is it in "relationship", family, friendship or in career!!! I'm always the failure! I've nv success in anything! Hw great am I? Shut me down instead y still putting me in earth doing all these shit tht I will be in success for?!?!?!
Y? Y? Y? Y? Y?
Seriously I only feel so unsercure being w u!!!!!
Nv hv step in! If I nv stepped in I wnt hv all this weird feelings!! Damn it! Well nv too late to step out I knw! But I think I've stepped quite deep :( shag!! It's okay! I still cn slowly step out! 3yr n 1 yr so deep Liao y not a few weeks one!!! Am I right? Damn it!!! Is this wht I should deserve?
Always doing the same damn thing so sick of it! Whn thn I cn find some one tht I cn relies on n a stable rs?!?!?
I hate myself for being a failure!!! Always wo fail! No matter is it in "relationship", family, friendship or in career!!! I'm always the failure! I've nv success in anything! Hw great am I? Shut me down instead y still putting me in earth doing all these shit tht I will be in success for?!?!?!
Y? Y? Y? Y? Y?
Seriously I only feel so unsercure being w u!!!!!
♥ Love me endlessly, 1:07 AM.
Friday, September 16, 2011
Y am I always the middle man?
And y did everyone like to throw their temper at me? Show me their attitude? Especially him!! Wthack!!!! Fook!!! I hate this!!!!
Why is it always me? This cn not tht also cnnot!! Wthack la seriously? Whts the meaning of living man!!! I seriously dnt get it!!!
Shouldn't hv change my attitude, cos now I wnt hv this kind of problem, letting thm show their attitude on me! Argh!!! I seriously unhappy being this way!!! Why am I always keeping silent? Silent doesn't means I cn let u climb over my head lei! Seriously its rubbish!!! Bull shit!!!
I hate to love! I told u I'm tired of being in love! U said u r ain't like the others though it's nt the first time I heard but I choose to trust ur words but..... Seriously u r partly thm!!! just feel like giving up!!!
cry in the middle of the night nobody knows! Hw great!!! Sigh~~!!!!!
Am I born to let everyone treating me this way? Cn anybody tell me? :(:(
And y did everyone like to throw their temper at me? Show me their attitude? Especially him!! Wthack!!!! Fook!!! I hate this!!!!
Why is it always me? This cn not tht also cnnot!! Wthack la seriously? Whts the meaning of living man!!! I seriously dnt get it!!!
Shouldn't hv change my attitude, cos now I wnt hv this kind of problem, letting thm show their attitude on me! Argh!!! I seriously unhappy being this way!!! Why am I always keeping silent? Silent doesn't means I cn let u climb over my head lei! Seriously its rubbish!!! Bull shit!!!
I hate to love! I told u I'm tired of being in love! U said u r ain't like the others though it's nt the first time I heard but I choose to trust ur words but..... Seriously u r partly thm!!! just feel like giving up!!!
cry in the middle of the night nobody knows! Hw great!!! Sigh~~!!!!!
Am I born to let everyone treating me this way? Cn anybody tell me? :(:(
♥ Love me endlessly, 9:22 PM.
Meeting today n hv to tied up my hair hv an bun with full make up -.- dnt knw wht the hack gg on to lol!
Sigh! See ban trai so stress up I also so stress up sia! Dnt knw hw to cheer him up dnt knw hw to talk to him too! Damn shag la! :( I dnt knw hw to carry on like tht sia! Cos I'm really not a gd ban gai! :( sigh!!! Dnt knw how to tc of him, dnt knw how to cheer him up release his stress! Damn it!!! Hw I wish chi gai is here with me and can help me through out! :(:(:(
Anyone cn help???? Lol
Sigh! See ban trai so stress up I also so stress up sia! Dnt knw hw to cheer him up dnt knw hw to talk to him too! Damn shag la! :( I dnt knw hw to carry on like tht sia! Cos I'm really not a gd ban gai! :( sigh!!! Dnt knw how to tc of him, dnt knw how to cheer him up release his stress! Damn it!!! Hw I wish chi gai is here with me and can help me through out! :(:(:(
Anyone cn help???? Lol
♥ Love me endlessly, 11:54 AM.
Thursday, September 15, 2011
Em Nho ban trai! Is happy to see ban trai during work! He came down aftr his wrk with his daughter, grandma n her grandpa! Though kinda love him but stress na! Sigh!
♥ Love me endlessly, 9:54 PM.
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
I'm back aftr so long! Hehe! Aftr so many things hv settle been going thru slots of problem all this while!
Woo!!! Finally I'm alright now n recovering! Though not fully cover but I'll try my best to tc of myself! :) and most of all thanks to ppl around me tc of! Those ppl are my colleagues though they r not my friends but as a group u ppl did the best :) tks ladies!
Well I also hv to thank god to let me met him! :) aftr so many things happen hahah tks for coming out at the right time :) been fear to walk toward u've pull me thru! Though my pro is nt worst thn urs but we'll make it thru with our strength!!! Lol
And the most important in my life i've thank is my chi gai! For taking good care of me whn u r around me! Be my listening ear! Be thr for me Whenever I need some one! Understand me so much! Though now we could be tgt but I sure one day we can be like last time everyday stick tgt! :):) Em Yeu chi va nho chi nhieu nhieu!!!!!
Pictures of me n chi gai! ♥♥
Woo!!! Finally I'm alright now n recovering! Though not fully cover but I'll try my best to tc of myself! :) and most of all thanks to ppl around me tc of! Those ppl are my colleagues though they r not my friends but as a group u ppl did the best :) tks ladies!
Well I also hv to thank god to let me met him! :) aftr so many things happen hahah tks for coming out at the right time :) been fear to walk toward u've pull me thru! Though my pro is nt worst thn urs but we'll make it thru with our strength!!! Lol
And the most important in my life i've thank is my chi gai! For taking good care of me whn u r around me! Be my listening ear! Be thr for me Whenever I need some one! Understand me so much! Though now we could be tgt but I sure one day we can be like last time everyday stick tgt! :):) Em Yeu chi va nho chi nhieu nhieu!!!!!
Pictures of me n chi gai! ♥♥
♥ Love me endlessly, 11:51 AM.
